It’s unsurprising that our expectations may differ from God’s plan. I recently experienced this and wish I had handled it more gracefully. While God’s plan and purpose are far better than mine, I silently carried around feelings of disappointment that I tried to ignore. By failing to take those feelings to God, I began to own those feelings. And those feelings began to own me. My feelings of disappointment in and frustration with God—while inaccurate reflections of God—became misleading as if they were reality, producing confusion about God.
I hope you can’t relate.
But I suspect you can.
You might be feeling disappointed with Christ right now. Of course, Christ never disappoints—the Lord is
faithful and true; His ways higher than ours.
So when I speak of disappointment or frustration, I merely refer to our carnal
feelings and perspective—not reality.
But because these feelings of disappointment and frustration can be deceptive,
they cannot remain unchecked.
My disappointment remained unchecked. Instead of pouring these feelings out to the
Lord, I told myself that God is sovereign and buried the disappointment. Although I truly have no right to be
disappointed in anything other than my own expectations that differ from Christ’s
perfect plan, as my disappointment festered, it quickly birthed confusion and
And when I finally poured myself out to Christ, my messy,
illogical, irrational feelings became peace in the hands of Christ. I want this for you.
I implore you to take the disappointment, the frustration, the
confusion, the uncertainty, the fear, the chaos to God—even if you cannot articulate
it, even if you cannot explain why, even if your feelings are petty in light of
God’s sovereignty. These matters of the
heart matter to a God who has numbered the very hairs on your head. The God who created your very inmost being cares
about what goes on within. Indeed, a God
who invites you to cast your anxiety on him undoubtedly concerns himself with your
Please don’t drown in feelings that tell you otherwise. Please don’t let your negative and confusing feelings guide your reality. How dangerous it
becomes to believe fleeting, illusory, or misleading feelings will remain mere
feelings. These unbridled feelings—feelings
not cast onto and surrendered to God—quickly become beliefs that skew the truth of God.
And here's the truth: The Lord cares
about every aspect of you. The Lord is
good and has good for you—even if that good is yet to be revealed or different
than you imagined. The Lord is in
control and will accomplish that good in you. But you're going to miss this if you continue to be dominated by the misleading feelings you refuse to relinquish.
I pray you pour out your chaotic, nonsensical, unfounded, bewildering,
overwhelming, inarticulate feelings to God—the God who affirms you and replaces your feelings with peace.
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he
cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7 (NIV).
“Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet
not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. And even the very hairs of
your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are
worth more than many sparrows.” Matthew
“For you created my inmost being; you knit
me together in my mother’s womb.” Psalm
This is my story these days. And it's a darn good one.
Much love to you,